||[Jun. 6th, 2005|07:27 am]
This is no long a friends only journal. M moved out Saturday. I haven't eaten since Friday. I haven't slept since Friday. I throw up water. Yesterday my car finally died. I waited three hours for the cab,and I have no idea if the tow truck came.|
I just can't believe that M is gone. I cried in the cab, I cried at work. Last night I swore he was next to me talking to me, but I think I'm so tired that I'm seeing things. I sleep in a nest of his clothes. All of this is killing me. I would give my life up for one last kiss... I'm in the ets crying. I didn't cheat on him. Yes, I was alone with James, but I swear on my love for M that nothing happened. I even hated having to babysit the guy. All I wanted was M. All I want is M. Please come back.... I swear to God, you can give me a lie detector test, I"LL PAY FOR IT! I did not cheat on you M. I LOVE YOU!!! I love you with all my heart. I can't go on like this... I don't want anyone but you. I don't want to love anyone but you. Please, come back to me.... Please, before my mother drives me away from you. I'll give up talking to my entire for you! I'll do anything! Just please.....Don't let me live a life without you...